30 means special to me ♥

I really love this day. It's the last day of the month sometimes but the beginning of another tight and God-centered bonding. 

There were words I wanted to say.

But to tell it, I didn't find any way

I grabbed it when there was a chance.

Because maybe that was only for once

I didn't really mean to hurt you that way.

But it's my mind I need to obey

Could you see me as over reacting?

Hmm. I just do believe that there is time for everything.

You know what? I just need to do that.

'Cause if not, I'll find myself falling out of love

I don't know why I love you this much.

Could it be a cupid's scratch?

Loving you is a sacrifice maybe.

But it makes me feel good all the day

Why is this happening to me?

I can't really describe my feelings anyway.

I really hope you could appreciate this love.

'Cause it comes straight from my heart♥

I still can't find a best title for this poem. Can you help me decide?

:(

I just don't know what to write. Maybe, I'm not feeling well. I hate this!

Mini Reunion at Glamang

I was really happy. We had our mini reunion at Glamang. Actually, we didn't know that my te mar and te sar will visit there. They didn't also know that we're already there. It was like a co-incidence. haha

When I got there, my caz was busy calling with her daddy. I was confused who that daddy was. Then, she told me that it was her bf. She requested me to have communication with him. I asked him many things and I let him assure me if he must not play with my caz. After that strict call, I realized that I was as if my father. LOL

We also did chit-chatting and eating and bonding. Sorry, I can't able to upload photos because we didn't have any digi cam and I can't trust this net cafe for me to connect with my usb port. How I wish, our PC would be ok. :)

My envelope comes to nowhere

I was really sad. I had lost my envelope and I don't know where to locate it. I'm sure I was holding it when I went at Jollibee (RD) after the class together with Kia. After that, I went at Home Solution. Waiting for mama, I didn't come inside immediately. I stayed beside their Tile Warehouse because there was a tricycle that time where I sitted. Suddenly, I received a call from mama telling me that she was already inside the Home Solution. After buying an additional tile, we went at KCC to put it over the baggage counter because it was that heavy. I went inside the mall to urinate. haha. Then, we went at Gaisano to buy light bulbs. After that, we head again at KCC to have our grocery and to take our merienda or it can be a dinner.

wooo! I think that was really a busy hours. After we head back home, I checked my bag and things to prepare for tomorrow's school day. I was shocked when I realized that my envelope was not with me anymore. I was worried because my NSTP book and Peachtree files were there.

The day after that day, I went at the tricycle where I stayed beside the Tile Warehouse. I was with SS. Hmm. I asked the driver buit he said that he didn't notice it. I also asked the baggage counter staffs if there was an envelope left but they said that there was none. huhu. I was really sad. :(

VALUE:

Be responsible always.

Goodbye AJ!

It was 11 p.m. when I received a message from a friend with an unbelievable news. I was at church that time after our Sunday service. She said that AJ Perez died. When I reached home, I immediately opened the television and I heard the breaking news about it. It was really true. I googled the reasons and I found out that they met an accident.

It was such an untimely demise. Until now, I can't move on. I can't believe it. :'(

Antonello Joseph Sarte Perez

(repost)

Eighteen-year-old actor and model AJ Perez was killed in a highway accident in Tarlac early Sunday morning, according to a report by radio dzMM.

Police said Perez was with his father and 4 others aboard an ABS-CBN van that collided with a Partas provincial passenger bus along McArthur Highway in Barangay San Julian, Tarlac.

Police Officer 2 Michael Millante of the Moncada Police told dzMM that Perez was declared dead on arrival by a hospital in Paniqui shortly after the accident took place at 12:10 a.m.

Perez’s 5 other companions were reportedly also injured during the crash and were taken to the hospital for treatment. They are Gerardo Perez (father), driver Christopher Bautista, Christina Ferrer, Edwin Patelos and Dannilyn Nunga.

The group had just come from a show in Dagupan and were reportedly on their way back to Manila.

Millante said the van carrying the victims tried to overtake a trailer truck when it collided with the incoming Partas bus.

"Nung makarating sa may Barangay San Julian, allegedly itong van ng ABS-CBN, um-overtake ng isang trailer. 'Yung pagka-overtake n'ya po, in the process, nag-alangan po siya. Tinamaan po niya itong Partas na nagresulta sa pagkapinsala nung laman ng van," he said.

Earlier, showbiz reporter and columnist Ogie Diaz reported the incident through his Twitter account.

"Galing ng Dagupan, pauwi na. Tulog lahat sa van. Sa Tarlac, biglang bumangga sa trak. Bago pa nadala si AJ Perez sa ospital, wala nang buhay," Diaz tweeted.

Diaz said he has talked to the father of the Star Magic actor.

"Nasa isang clinic sa Paniqui, Tarlac ang mga labi ni AJ Perez. Kausap ko si Daddy kanina, iyak nang iyak. Ndi ako makakatulog nito," added Diaz.

Shortly before the accident, Perez was still able to post a Twitter message thanking his fans who attended his show in Dagupan. 

"On the way home already from Dagupan.Long drive ahead.. Thanks to everybody who watched, thanks to zui for the gifts.And hi again to jarred!" said Perez.

POINT:

Life is indeed unpredictable. It would not tell you how long your life is. It chooses no one. We just have to value evry seconds of our life. We must live each day as it will be the last day of our life. Of course, we must have make God the center of our life and we will be assured that nothing will ever be wasted.

Just me :)

VALUE:

The true beauty can be seen not only in the outside but also inside the heart where kindness resides. Glory to God!

Appeared but disappeared

You know what? I had just posted yesterday that my wisdom tooth developed but after I had taken my lunch and looked at the mirror, I was shocked that it disappeared. Sounds ridiculous, isn't it? hahaha

Wisdom tooth

My wisdom tooth appears. I just noticed it after I had taken my breakfast. I was kinda ignorant of it. But based on my research:

A wisdom tooth, in humans, is any of the usually four third molars. Wisdom teeth usually appear between the ages of 17 and 25. Most adults have four wisdom teeth, but it is possible to have more, in which case they are called supernumerary teeth. Wisdom teeth commonly affect other teeth as they develop, becoming impacted or "coming in sideways". They are often extracted when this occurs. About 35% of the population do not develop wisdom teeth at all.

I am one of those 65% who developed this so-called wisdom tooth. hahahaha

Happy Birthday Ma!

It's my mother's 48th birthday. She doesn't want to have "bongacious" celebration. What's important for her is that, she could give thanksgiving to God through a family celebration during dinner time in our table. We just had have fried chicken and bihon. 

I thank God for giving me a mother like her. No one compares to her. I love her very much. ♥

I wish her a long life and more blessings to come on her way.

My beautiful mama :))

Where's the sun??

I'm just kinda bored. So, I had trippin' with my shade. I am not yet taking my lunch. :( I want to visit my best friend but still waiting for a signal.  

A rainbow after the rain

After I enrolled for Summer 2011, I went to Silway to look for something fun. I thought of buying pants but I didn't have anyone to be with. So I planned to cancel it. As I head at our compound, I had seen my uncle who is a seaman. He was just sojourning there maybe. We had discussed about my studies, my brother, my parents and etc. together with uncle Boboy, his brother.

You know what? He gave me Php150 and Cadbury and Toblerone chocolates. I was very very happy. You can draw a big smile on my face up to my ears. haha. I was as if a kid, right? "Mababaw ang kaligayahan", in other words.

I shared it with my cousin, Mariel.

Yum:) :) :) :) :) :)  Only 1 toblerone left.  

I know you can't imagine how HAPPPPPPPPYYYYYYYYYY I was. La la la la la la la ♪ ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ ♫

VALUE:

Cheer up! As what SS said, "Hindi lahat sadness, meron ding happiness".

Footprints in the sand

One night I had a dream--

I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord 

and across the sky flashed scenes from my life. 

For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints, 

one belonged to me and the other to the Lord. 

When the last scene of my life flashed before me,

I looked back at the footprints in the sand.

I noticed that many times along the path of my life,

there was only one set of footprints.

I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest

and saddest times in my life. 

This really bothered me and I questioned the Lord about it. 

"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,

you would walk with me all the way,

but I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life

there is only one set of footprints. 

"I don't understand why in times when I needed you most,

you should leave me." 

The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child,

I love you and I would never, never leave you

during your times of trial and suffering. 

"When you saw only one set of footprints,

it was then that I carried you."

...Mary Stevenson

Everything happens for a purpose

I did my best. But I think my best wasn't good enough. haha. Uhm. I really need to say "goodbye". It's hard of course because I can't fulfill my parents' dream for me. I think I can't withstand this situation. I guess I have sinned that's why God can't also fulfill his promise for me. I have to hold the title but I wasn't able. I was so disappointed and depressed.

Hmm. But as I was talking to God through prayer, I realized that life doesn't end just there. I remembered His message during our Ugnayan Youth Fellowship; "The best moment of praying is when you don't want to pray." Everything happens for a purpose. Maybe God wants me to learn different way through walking in other side.

Maybe I was just having a "defense mechanism". But gradually, I know I can accept it and enjoy the rest of God's plan.

I want to say thank you to God most especially, to my parents who accepted my weaknesses and SS who showed his love, care and support.

GLORY TO GOD for everything! :D

VALUES:
Indeed, everything happens for a purpose. You just have to trust God's timing and plan. You don't have to think that he forsakes you. Remember the "Footprints in the sand"?

Nobody does :'(

Nobody understands me. Nobody empathizes my feeling. Nobody knows that I'm deeply hurt. Nobody cares because they will never be me. :'(

VALUES:

I know that even people around me don't understand what I feel, God does care. I will just entrust everything to Him. His plan will be the best one. I am really confused. God! Let me hear your voice clearly. :(